WHEN YOU FALL . . . .and YOU WILL (1)


Romans 8:11 (KJV)

 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.

Many people I know are ready to topple. Intense pressures from the circumstances of today’s world are causing our lives and the lives of those around us to fall, crash, and burn. Some of us get back up to get going again, limping along, trying to make our daily lives continue. Others can’t get back up. Their lives are too messed up. Destroyed. Their burdens have broken them. And for many, there is no one to help. The devastations are too great. Some of those people are us.

Many people who have been disabled or handicapped by life do not have sufficient resources to draw upon for support and/or counseling to get them through their circumstances. Family has failed them. Friends have failed them. Church support/resources/counseling is sometimes not enough or even unable or unavailable to provide for emotional needs. “Systems” programs and counseling services may be available but are expensive and limited at meeting heart and spiritual needs.

But God . . . .

There is ONE Who is helping if we let Him. If we ask Him. His name is Jesus. Sometimes we are asking, begging, and even yelling our requests skyward but we don’t see a rock turned or a leaf blown in our defense. Not even a slight breeze of comfort. And, unfortunately, there are events that happen that LOOK like He is either the cause or He didn’t stop something that shouldn’t have happened. “If You are a Good God, then why . . . . . . . . .?

Yes, I exaggerated the suspension point at the end of that question on purpose. And it’s not long enough. What else can truly, adequately describe the suspension of the heart cries of desperation, brokenness, and destruction? Sometimes, SOMETIMES, it looks like our God doesn’t care or He did it. THAT’ll kill your hope. It’s bad enough to rise again when you feel the whole world is against you. And then when you feel like God is against you . . . .?

“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick; but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.”(Prov 13:12)

Just like many of you, I am not a stranger to a life of overwhelming disappointments and destructions. There are those of us who have who have had things happen because of our own choices, and there are those of us who have had things happen to us we never saw coming. Could never imagine, never suspected. And we die inside. If I get there, in another blog I can touch on unimaginable misgivings between us and God.

So, how do you keep going? I have people looking at me and saying, “What keeps you going? How do you get back up and keep going when others walk away?” And, “I have seen you knocked down so many times and get back up. You go through things I don’t think I could go through.”

I don’t. There are times I have fallen in my heart. Who in their right mind and human ability can say with 100% JOY and totally loving attitudes they have walked their entire way through a season of devastation in their lives? I go through seasons that seem as though my face has hit the ground so many times I think I’m safer if I just stay there. If someone has NEVER gone through a season of devastation that knocked them off their feet, NEVER caused them to question their faith clear to the roots, and NEVER question themselves and their God deep in their core, then I question their faith!

David cried out and then shared his life experience in a prophetic Psalm about Jesus, “My God, my God, why has thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?” (Psalm 22:1)

Jesus cried out his death cry on the cross, fulfilling the prophecy, “And at the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani? which is being interpreted, My God, my God, why has thou forsaken me?” (Mark 15:34)

Both men lived life and death circumstances. David fell because of his own choices and because of other’s choices against him. He definitely had more than he could handle. God continued to raise David up from deep pitfalls time after time. Jesus took the fall for us, and died. That’s an emotional toll that is a killer. JESUS DIED BECAUSE HE TOOK ON ALL OUR SIN AND BECAUSE OF THE DECISIONS OF HIS OWN DIVINE LAW. Jesus knew what was happening when his death was going down. I personally think He shared this emotional struggle out loud so we could have record of the fact that He understands when we feel separated from God in the midst of intense duress.

So, what’s the key here? How do we keep going? OPENNESS. Keep . . . .the . . . .door. . . .open. Aloneness is a life drainer. Stuffing the bad stuff creates emotional isolation, which in turn creates physical, social isolation and separation from God. David was called a man after God’s own heart and it’s because he was totally open with God with the good and the bad. Nothing hidden. David allowed God in at all times and God stayed with him. Jesus obviously had divine connections with the Father, yet the Father had to turn away from the sin His son was buried under. Yet Jesus kept an open line with the Father, and He kept it real with us. Jesus died. Jesus WAS DEAD. God reached down and raised Jesus from death.

I’m totally honest with God about ALL my feelings and thoughts. And some thoughts and conversations aren’t pretty. There are times I just can’t take it anymore. Fighting this life is more than I ever dreamed or thought of. Some days do not feel like the victorious Christian life we are taught is ours. The goals of reigning in that promised victory seem too far out of reach. I told God recently I’m not going to continue following “that carrot.”  I know He heard my voice and my thoughts. The Word says He knows our thoughts before we even think them. I confess I was having a really bad attitude moment because all my strength was gone. I felt dead.

But, you know what? He never left me. He is still with me. How do I know this? I’m not carrying the weight of guilt, shame and condemnation. He’s keeping those from me. Blessings do flow to me and through me to others. My thinking is jilted when I get to this point because of the way I am feeling and it is always because of emotional pain which causes deep fear and anger. We get angry because we feel out of control and become afraid. From past experience I know I have to tell Him He’s going to have to get me through because I can’t move anymore.

I also recently told Him I wanted to turn and walk away. What just happened, the things I had just learned, were WAAAAY more than I could bear. Alone. There are definitely some things in life you can’t tell people. And if you do, they can’t grasp it and take it away to the degree the circumstances have a grasp, a death grip, on your heart. I attempted to talk to a couple people, but the emotional release was just not there. The intense pain pressure continued and prayer wasn’t moving the boulder in my heart. I felt that if He wasn’t going to move this stuff,  or go through it with me and get me to the other side, then I was finished. I told God, “I want to fall away. I have had enough. The pain is too deep.”

And then, a beautiful thing happened.


I melted. These words were more felt in my heart, in my being, not audible. I knew what I had just “heard” in my spirit was Him, and I knew I had a choice. Fall away, or fall into Him and let Him help. He was waiting for me to quit trying to overcome the death of my faith myself.

Many of us don’t allow the thought into our minds that God already knows what we are thinking and feeling inside. He knows those things are in there. He created us, and He knows our strengths and weaknesses. And He’s not a stranger to pain. History written by pagans outside of the Bible has proven Christ WAS a real human being on this earth and WAS crucified. He now rules and reigns in the spirit realm that we can have privilege to, if we want it, and He teaches us how to increase His kingdom in our lives and on this earth. There ARE things that happen on this earth that are too much to bear and we were not created to carry them or deal with them alone. He’s waiting to be asked in to assist in our lives.

That quote, “God doesn’t give you more than you can bear,” is hogwash. It’s not a scripture. The original scripture is about temptations and sinning which is a completely different subject than being obliterated by a tsunami you didn’t create. And the “He’s in control of all things” line isn’t quite on our level either. Yes, He’s in control of all things, good and bad, but in ways beyond our understanding. Parents are IN CHARGE of their household, but not totally IN CONTROL of every decision everyone in the house makes. Children make decisions their parents do not approve of, but everyone lives by the consequences. Parents may possibly control the outcome.

Bing. I just gave you part of a clue as to why bad things happen and sometimes God doesn’t stop them. God gave this earth to mankind along with the abilities to manage and the freewill to do with as we please. That means we have the right to love Him and others or not. He doesn’t want robots. We just have to accept we live the consequences of our decisions, and sometimes others, but understand He is right close to us to help clean up the messes. This blog could go so many different directions at this point, but I’m trying to keep it in boundaries of the heart at this time.

I’ll give you another tip in the next blog. Right now, someone needs to have a heart to heart conversation with their Creator. He knows what’s in you because He created you. He knows how deeply you’ve been struck and He grieves for you. And He knows the status of your faith at this moment and He wants you to know He loves you. He wants to raise you up just like He raised David, His dead son, and others. I’m surviving this recent hit, the pain is almost completely dissolved. I no longer want to shrivel up and die. My strength is back and it feels different. Stronger. Now I know I can watch life play out as He brings the victory. I want YOU to get there as well because YOU have some awesome stuff inside you.

Your first line of defense in rising from the dead is to talk to Him from the place of pain in your heart, KEEPING THE DOOR OPEN BETWEEN YOU AND HIM.

Romans 8:11 (KJV)

 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.


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Luke 21:36 "Watch therefore, and pray always that you may be counted worthy to escape all these things that will come to pass, and to stand before the Son of Man."

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